Category Archives: Musings

Hopefully a little more thought-out than the ramblings.

Supernatural me: The search for a soul

Do you believe in the supernatural human soul? I believe that all people are supernatural beings, and so do you. In this article, I aim to convince you of that fact.

Defining supernatural

su·per·nat·u·ral
/ˌso͞opərˈnaCH(ə)rəl/
adjective
  1. (of a manifestation or event) attributed to some force beyond scientific understanding or the laws of nature
    – Oxford Dictionary

Anything that can’t be described by our understanding of nature can be labeled as supernatural. This definition is somewhat incomplete, though, in that it doesn’t make allowance for the limitation of human knowledge.

There are events that transpire every day that can’t be fully explained by our current understanding of the laws of nature, and yet we don’t consider them to be supernatural because we can conceive of natural laws to describe the behaviors. We just don’t currently understand the workings of those laws in detail. For something to be considered truly supernatural, it must be unquestionably beyond the scope of what can be described by the laws of nature.

Defining the soul

Dictionary definitions of the human soul are vague and convoluted, which is not surprising. The word “soul” can be used in many contexts, and the boundaries between them are blurry. Since I am unable to find a dictionary definition that exactly matches the concept I desire to address, I propose my own definition:

soul – The immaterial part of you that comprises the core of what you think of as “self”, consisting of your thoughts, your emotions, and your resolve.

Throughout this article, when I refer to the soul, consider the word a placeholder for the concept expressed in this sentence.

Building blocks of the soul

As a father, I think about this topic frequently. What makes a person who they are? Where do behavioral traits come from? Historically, the debate has been nature vs. nurture. Are our behaviors inherited from our ancestors, or are they influenced by our environment?

While this is certainly a fascinating topic, I think it is irrelevant to the topic at hand. Both our innate character and our experiences are ultimately encoded in the physical structure of our brain. Distilled to its basic essence, you could say that our soul is comprised of the network of neural connections in our brain, and the impulses that travel along those connections.

To put it another way, in theory every single thought or emotion that you have ever experienced can be traced to a neurochemical reaction in your brain.

There. Simple, right? There’s nothing supernatural about it. Your soul can be completely explained by the laws of nature.

Beyond neurochemistry

There is a problem with this explanation, though. This model of the human soul is not very unlike a computer. You have your hardware, the raw cerebral material that you are born with, and the encoding of your experiences into that material is analogous to programming a computer.

If every behavior that you manifest can be explained by the physical makeup of your mind, then who is accountable for your actions? Is a computer accountable for its behavior? It just does what it is programmed to do, given the physical limitations of its hardware.

How is your mind any different? If you break a law, why should you be held accountable? You can’t go against what your brain is telling you to do, and your brain is simply a conglomerate of the neural connections you were born with, modified by the experiences that you have gone through.

And yet we all believe that each individual is ultimately accountable for their actions, don’t we? If someone were to walk up to you and punch you in the face, would you bemoan the combination of hardware and software that ultimately led to that inevitable injurious event? You might, on a good day, sympathize slightly with your assailant if you knew that they had a rough childhood, but I’m sure that you would consider the person to be responsible for attacking you.

I am not an automaton

I am more than a computer. My soul, the part of me that I think of as “me”, exists beyond the tangle of impulses and neurons in my head. I can rise above my nature and my history. There is something within me that is able to override my programming, to surpass the limitations of my hardware.

I must believe this, because if I don’t then I give in to fatalism. Such thinking leads to a life without accountability, without accomplishment, and without hope. I refuse to live a life bereft of hope. It is the supernatural within me that provides that hope.

– danBhentschel

Adirondack Vacation 2014

Every fall, during Columbus Day weekend, we head to the Adirondacks for our traditional “Lake Placid” vacation. Let me tell you a bit about this year’s trip.

Day 0: Pack Day

The first day of vacation is always Pack Day. I take the whole day off from work, and Marlene and I meander through a massive 6-page Microsoft Word pack list.

Considering that diapers still need changing, meals still need to be served, and kids still need occasional hugs, Pack Day really does take the whole day. This year was particularly interesting because Jasmin’s preschool had a field trip to Stokoe Farm that same day. I took her and Beth while Marlene got started on the list.

Jasmin and Beth playing in a giant sandbox full of corn at Stokoe Farm
Jasmin and Beth playing in a giant sandbox full of corn at Stokoe Farm

This Pack Day, I wasn’t able to survive the whole day. I went to bed early at 8:30, while Marlene and Timmy stayed awake until 2 AM, finishing up.

Day 1: Driving Day

Even though we call it our “Lake Placid” trip, we don’t actually stay in Lake Placid. Every year, we rent two cottages in the town of Keene: Blueberry Cottage and Cascade Cottage. My parents and my sister, Laurel, join us for this vacation. They sleep in Blueberry, and my family sleeps in Cascade.

My family eating breakfast in Cascade Cottage

We always start our drive with breakfast at Bob’s Diner. The waitresses there know us, and are always happy to see us off on our exciting trip. There’s not too much to tell about the ride out. The kids watched Frozen and Ice Age, and Marlene slept a good portion of the drive.

When we arrived at Keene, it was dinner time. Our traditional Day 1 dinner is take-out from the Noon Mark Diner with pies (apple, blueberry, and cherry) for dessert. While some people worked on dinner, others unpacked and organized. By bed time, almost everything was pretty well squared away. What an efficient family I have.

The adults stayed up to chat a bit, while I set up a wireless network for our surveillance cameras (can’t be without them) and acted grumpy. What can I say? I was pretty tired.

Jacob and Ricky asleep for the surveillance camera
Jacob and Ricky seen sleeping on a surveillance camera

Day 2: Owl’s Head

Saturday was our first full day in the Adirondacks. Every year we try to take the whole family up Owl’s Head. Some years, the younger children stay home because of inclement weather, but this year the skies decided to cooperate with us.

Owl’s head is a nice, short hike. It’s only about 0.6 miles to the top, with several very nice views along the way. Timmy and Nora lead the way, while Jacob and I (with Beth on my back) were very close behind. Laurel was very good about walking with Ricky all the way up, and Marlene, Jasmin, and my Mom took up the rear. We congregated on the top of Owl’s Head for a lunch of sandwiches, raisins, and juice boxes.

Timmy, Nora, and Jacob hiking up the hill
Timmy, Nora, and Jacob hiking up the hill

 

Eating lunch on Owl's Head
Eating lunch on Owl’s Head

 

Timmy, Nora, and Jacob standing on the summit
Timmy, Nora, and Jacob standing on the summit of Owl’s Head

 

Nora, admiring the view from the top
Nora, admiring the view from the top

Apparently, my mom almost fell off the mountain on the way down. I didn’t see the event, but I’ve heard the story several times now.

When we got down, it was nap time. Marlene and the younger children slept while Timmy and I played a couple games of Star Realms, and Nora started working on a candy bar puzzle with Laurel and my mom.

That night, we had homemade tacos and mini-pizzas for dinner, and Stewart’s ice cream for dessert. Saturday night is bath night, and in Blueberry Cottage, that means jacuzzi time. All six kids and I put our bathing suits on and hopped in the tub. It was pretty crowded, and we decided this will be the last year that we do bath time for seven!

Rub-a-dub-dub, six kids (and Dad) in a tub!
Rub-a-dub-dub, six kids (and Dad) in a tub!

After the younger kids were in bed, Timmy, Marlene, Mom, and I played a game of 7 Wonders together while Laurel worked on cross stitch.

Day 3: Lake Placid

Sunday morning we had bacon, eggs, and pancakes for Special Breakfast. The plan was to go to church at the Adirondack Church of the Nazarene.  We’ve been going there once a year, every year since before Timmy was born. Unfortunately, this year they have apparently closed their doors. We didn’t find this out, though, until after we had made the 25 minute drive out there.

After an impromptu planning meeting, we decided to move our Lake Placid shopping trip from Monday morning to Sunday morning. The kids had fun shopping for toys at the Imagination Station, though the adults all agree that each year it is increasingly less of a toy store and more of a souvenir shop.

Jacob, wearing the swim goggles he bought with his own money

Then we went to The Candy Man (Adirondack Chocolates) store, where Marlene and I bought each of the kids their own special candy. We then finished up our shopping trip with lunch at The Great Adirondack Steak and Seafood Company.

Laurel, Dad, Timmy and Nora watched the Patriots beat the Bills during nap time. Then we had Tuna Helper for dinner, and celebrated Laurel and Marlene’s birthdays before bed time.

Go Bills!... ummm... Patriots!... ummm... Somebody win!
Go Bills!… ummm… Patriots!… ummm… Somebody win!

I went to bed at about the same time as the kids that night, while Timmy and Nora stayed up to finish the puzzle with the other adults.

Day 4: Baxter Mountain

Monday was the day we had originally planned to go shopping. Since we did that on Sunday, we decided to do another hiking trip, this time to Baxter Mountain.

This hike is about twice as long as Owl’s Head, but it’s a gentler incline, and it also offers some very nice views. We had a snack together near the top.

Timmy, Nora, Jacob, and swim goggles on Baxter
Timmy, Nora, Jacob, and swim goggles on Baxter

 

Snack time near the peak of Baxter
Snack time near the peak of Baxter

The original plan was for Timmy and I to hike Giant Mountain together Monday afternoon, but by the time we were done with Baxter, it was too late to start. Timmy was pretty disappointed, and I don’t blame him.

Monday evening we had hot dogs for dinner, and used up most of the remaining pie and ice cream for dessert. After bed time, Timmy, Nora, Marlene, Laruel, and my mom joined me in playing Bang!: The Dice Game, followed by King of Tokyo. Then, after everyone else went to bed, Laurel and I stayed up ridiculously late playing more Star Realms together.

Nora and I playing King of Tokyo
Nora and I playing King of Tokyo

Day 5: Homeward Bound

Tuesday morning, Timmy asked if he could build the final fire of the trip in Cascade’s fireplace. So I gave him instructions on how to pick wood and kindling from the woodshed, how to arrange the wood and newspapers, etc. He did a very good job, and with just a single match, he was able to start a very respectable blaze.

Timmy's fire
Timmy and his fire

After breakfast, we bundled all the kids into the van to watch Nanny McPhee Returns (and keep out of the way) while the adults packed.

Beth hanging out by a small pile of luggage
Beth hanging out by a small pile of luggage

The return trip was, again, relatively uneventful. Yet another successful Lake Placid vacation. Go Team Hentschel!

 

– danBhentschel

Natural me: crossing the line

nat·u·ral

adjective \ˈna-chə-rəl, ˈnach-rəl\

existing in nature and not made or caused by people

 – Merriam-Webster

I am me, naturally

Who am I? There are so many ways to delineate the concept that I think of as “me”.

On a purely physical level, you could make the argument that I am simply a collection of living cells that have combined forces to preserve one another. On an even more basic physical level, you could say that I am made up of atoms that react with one-another according to well-defined rules.

Looking at it from a psychological perspective, you could say that I am a conglomerate of emotions, ideas, memories, and motivations that collectively make the personality known as Dan Hentschel.

There’s also a spiritual perspective. I believe that I am a product of a benevolent, intelligent creator who has designed me as an everlasting being, in His image.

Natural me

I am a homo sapiens, a primate, a mammal, a chordate. If you trace my scientific classification all the way up, I am considered to be a part of the animal kingdom.

My seventh grade Life Sciences text book told me that I am descended from chimpanzees, or perhaps chimps and humans are parallel developments from some earlier primate ancestor. Before primates there were rat-like mammals, which were preceded by reptile / mammal hybrids, then tetrapods, then fish, invertebrates… all the way back to single-celled organisms.

Through a process of mutation and natural selection, I was determined to be the most fit form of primate (so far) for my habitat. Congratulations to me.

Unnatural me

And yet, despite the insistence of my seventh grade Life Sciences book, our culture tells me that I am not natural. In fact, nature and I are at war with each other.

I take a shower or flush the toilet, and I use up gallons of water. I order a pizza, and I use fossil fuels to cook it and deliver it, generating greenhouse gasses in the process, I kill trees to make the pizza box, which I then throw into a landfill, and I kill a pig and a cow to put pepperoni on top.

The message is clear: every day I am hurting nature. Little-by-little, the actions that I perform are destroying this beautiful, natural world.

Nature hater?

Do I hate nature? Absolutely not! On the contrary, I love nature: woods, mountains, beaches, flowers, and animals. I also happen to love some man-made things as well: cities and buildings, monuments, canals, bridges and dams.

I don’t love the bizarre, double-minded thinking of our culture about humans and nature. Are we a part of nature or aren’t we? If we are are part of nature, then what is the purpose of the distinction between natural and man-made? Why don’t we have terms for chimpanzee-made or tiger-made?

Humans are different

Perhaps we were “natural” at some point in our history, but the moment the human race started to contemplate our impact on nature, we became separate from it. A squirrel doesn’t think about its impact on nature. A squirrel does what it does. It eats and stores seeds and nuts. It climbs trees. It has babies.

No animal affects nature to the extent we humans do, though. The human race has practically covered the globe, consuming resources wherever we go. But that’s broken thinking again. Does the extent of our impact make it less natural? Based on natural selection, the extent to which we have affected the environment just highlights our fitness to it.

It’s all a matter of perception. We see ourselves as unnatural because we are able to perceive and assess our impact on the world around us.

Nature in the balance

The war between humans and nature needs to stop. Just as squirrels do the things that squirrels do, people do the things that people do. We take showers and flush toilets. We order pizzas with pepperoni on top. We live.

Nature is in constant flux. The fossil record shows many snapshots of nature that are very different from the one that we know. Change is not necessarily a bad thing. Once again, the badness is injected by our own perspective.

Due to human influence, nature is currently in a period of rapid change. Is it definitely change for the worse? How do you even quantify such a thing? Change is scary. We know the nature of the past, and we like it. The nature of the future is yet to be seen.

Any change in nature is bound to be bad for certain forms of life, and good for others. I find it hard to believe that anything we do would completely wipe out all life on the planet. The real danger, from my point of view, is that we will change our planet to the extent that it becomes difficult, or even impossible, for humanity to thrive on it.

So what’s the big deal?

If we are just a collection of atoms or cells, then what does it matter if the human race ceases to exist? There will be other collections of atoms and groups of cells, just not in human form.

The story is much the same if I am defined by my emotions, ideas, memories, and motivations. My thoughts may seem very important to me right now, but once I’m gone they will fade.  If all the people on Earth were to disappear tomorrow, who would mourn their passing?

Without the spiritual perspective, preservation of life is simply maintaining status quo out of a fear of change. Our actions take on meaning when we know that they are being weighed by an eternal observer.

The Bible tells me, in apparent opposition to my seventh grade textbook, that I am created for God’s pleasure. It says that He loves me and gave me this world, and everything in it, as a gift and as a responsibility. From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.

I believe that it is my responsibility to cherish and care for nature not out of misplaced nostalgia, not out of fear of change, not out of a guilty conscience, but out of a love and respect for the creator who gave it into my care.

– danBhentschel